this feeling has a name

July 10, 2005 at 7:20 pm | Posted in Uncategorized | 2 Comments

The Space Between
Dave Matthews Band

You cannot quit me so quickly
There’s no hope in you for me
No corner you could squeeze me
But I got all the time for you, love

The Space Between
The tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain

But will I hold you again?
These fickle, fuddled words confuse me
Like ‘Will it rain today?’
Waste the hours with talking, talking
These twisted games we’re playing

We’re strange allies
With warring hearts
What wild-eyed beast you be
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain

Will I hold you again?
Will I hold…

Look at us spinning out in
The madness of a roller coaster
You know you went off like a devil
In a church in the middle of a crowded room
All we can do, my love
Is hope we don’t take this ship down

The Space Between
Where you’re smiling high
Is where you’ll find me if I get to go
The Space Between
The bullets in our firefight
Is where I’ll be hiding, waiting for you
The rain that falls
Splash in your heart
Ran like sadness down the window into…
The Space Between
Our wicked lies
Is where we hope to keep safe from pain

Take my hand
‘Cause we’re walking out of here
Oh, right out of here
Love is all we need here

The Space Between
What’s wrong and right
Is where you’ll find me hiding, waiting for you
The Space Between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we’ll fill with time
The Space Between…

****

words fail me right now. dmb however is always here to put the words in my mouth. a welcome respite, for these moments of solitude which sometimes i wish would go away, but sometimes i so desperately seek.

who’s waiting on the other side?

last night i had a very interesting conversation with one of my best friends. she was considering a decsion that might just affect the rest of her life. and without meaning to, i suddenly let out a thought, which she agrees would be a welcome move on my part. and at the same time we got to the bottom of what was holding me back.

the task is clear. the resolve is firm. all that’s left to figure out now is the means by which to acquire that which i realize my heart really, really wants.

which makes dmb so appropriate for this moment. it’s all about the space between everything and everyone.

the space between what’s right and wrong. what i want and what i need. between who i am and who i want to be. maybe it’s not all that clear right now.

but when it’s time to define that space, i can finally live up to the name peregrine.

‘just make sure if you go,’ i told my friend, ‘that you won’t be carrying any baggage along’.

it sounded more like an advice to myself.